It used to be my favorite musical. On the third day, it described my last transmission.
I had a really long day. One of the reasons I started this blog is because of some emotional processing I need to do, due to personal progression in my life. We could call it Emotional Growth, of which I am experiencing incredible growing pains. What do the doctor's say when experiencing pain...?
"Breathe..."
So that's what I did. It was nearly 2 a.m. and I sunk into the shower again with a soundtrack of Sigur Ros. They have exceptionally long songs and this 10:14 song would work perfectly. I started in a Lotus.
I had much more running through my head during this session than I would have liked. I knew I was going to bed directly after and I was having trouble letting go for any more than a few minutes at a time. For me, I can truly feel myself escape my body for most of my sessions. It takes at least 10 to 20 minutes to get to that stage. Usually, I can't really feel most of my body. And observing yourself during a state of mind where you are supposed to be thinking of nothing might be counter productive. Even though I have a very artistic mind, I often take logistical and scientific approaches to collecting information. Part of me is desperately seeking escape from emotional chaos and other parts of me are trying to document the process. In today's session, I had trouble maintaining that disconnected from the body, connected to... something else, that I normally go through when I'm attempting to be under that long. I even had to change my position to extend my legs. I know these sessions will help me process this growth, as it helps me process a lot of things I do not understand, but today I felt like I just went through the motions.
I will say that I went to sleep quickly after the session was over. That was a nice change of pace, even if I woke up after only a few hours.
Session length was approximately 24 minutes.
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